Be Yourself

Silence today, the cozy warmth of another day off hybernating within. I’m lucky in that I requested an extra day off this week ahead of time, and I’m lucky to have a boss who hears me and understands.

The trained ones—they’re trained to focus on others, in not helpful ways, rather than focus on themselves. This is where so much of the garble comes from—it’s the wild ones who heal and the wild ones who understand. We all need to return to the wild, where there are no labels, no fears, no capturing. Nature is where we all originally came from—that and the stars.

What does it mean to be wild? Be yourself. Get to know yourself and all else comes naturally, as does accepting people the way they are. I get along best with the untamed ones. The ones without badges and uniforms. The ones who flow, and together, our flows make miracles.

Ew gross! Are you guys all cumming together? lol no.

You know, it feels good to be a little tired, and then of course, to recoup on my own within one night’s full rest, knowing of course it’s all healing and real.

If I were to publish this writing on my website, I might feel fear from judgments of others who don’t realize what it means to be human. To be wild.

I’m also a perfectionist—> is that true or is that just a quality? What’s the difference? What is there to rattle up or shake up about me? Or you? What’s beneath the alcohol you were drinking or perhaps still are? The food you were binging or perhaps still are? I’m here to help heal people, through my own healing and understanding.

“Addict! Bipolar! Manic! Psychosis!” Woah there. A small voice scared inside ALWAYS KNEW those slap labels and judgments were wrong. Can you hear what’s really there? Fear. Quick “fix”, that’s of course not a fix. A way to cover up, categorize, and for those REALLY high up who were labeling in these ways, it’s because they were in on it. Not helpful. What is helpful is healing—allowing the natural process within, and letting the soul inside crack up through the seed shell, the earth, and the pavement, and downward too closer to the core. You don’t have to perfectly or finger-pointingly know. Your intuition already did and always will too. It’s okay to be a small voice at times and to have grown to be no longer afraid.

So now what? What do we do? Something must be done! Meh. As long as we’re safely away from the people our intuition knew weren’t great, we’re fine. Believe us, it’s a Thank God everyday that we’re here, we’re free, we’re safe and finally empowered.

But even so…we feel for solutions, but we don’t focus on them. Why? Because.

In our world, we’re making miracles. Even in Winter, our plants continue to grow and bear fruits. And it is our world. Don’t worry about the rest, and if you do at times, I’ll be here too, not judging, but allowing because that’s what we do. Through healing and alchemy, not only do miracles take place forward, but they also take place backward. Ahead of the game and truly without it, we mostly trust ourselves. It’s not an anger-based trust, that believe me, was also sane, but a deeply self-rooted trust that is comfortably at home within.

Do I sound like my mom? Not my biological mom…my real mom. Surprise. That’s because I am.